Fit to be Tied

Martha writes sweetly of how things are devloping with her new Master:

We talked a bit about teaching each other. Sometimes my needs and wants are not quite clear enough to Him. This i understand, as it is this way in any relationship, vanilla, chocolate, and swirl! lol i suggested some things that may be of interest to Him, and they were very well received. [big grin]

Non-sexual nudity of varying degrees, bound hands, looks of admiration from Him, sight deprivation, all seemed to be agreed upon. We are at the beginning of experiences that will, i am sure, boggle our minds. There is so much more. Touches. Play toys. Physical, mental, emotional, soul searching contentment. And i can barely wait. Scared, yet so comfortable.

We talked a bit about that ’space’ also. What some call sub space. i struggled with that for so long. Does it exist for everyone? What is it? How does it feel? [thank you Optima for your unwavering patience with my questions] He has brought me to places i didn’t know existed. i will let go eventually. Of this i am sure. i noticed that i needed a bit of attention after this happened. i can only hope that we can both understand ‘aftercare’. I don’t want either of us to feel anything close to fear. Master is learning that, although i appear, shall we say dishelved, i am ok, and just need to, uhmm, ground myself again. i am sure that my breathing issues scare Him. i will let Him know if i am in trouble regarding those. The last time i played hero regarding these lungs, i landed my ars in the hospital for four days.

i am sure that, as i am becoming increasingly aware of His needs and desires, He is becoming more aware of mine. Soon, He will know when i need to be taken down a bit. **giggle** When i start getting out of hand, He will know exactly where i need to be put. And He will put me there.

Fit to be Tied