Fledgeling’s Journey

Ling does a lovely job of capturing some of the emotional complications of submission. Particularly that easy trap: overcomplicating being pleasing.

Lately i have been trying to learn not to overthink my tasks. Once things are a rule there is no discussion….it is a rule! At that point i need to recognize that i should no longer think about the task or rule….just act. As a sub it isn’t my place to question everything Cloud presents before me. It is my job to listen and act according to what tasks are placed before me. A rock doesn’t think….it just is. i know i should think less and act more.

i think i could learn more about stillness from a rock. i am fidgety and i think i really gain something from learning to be still. To enjoy being still and appreciate the stillness of life. there are times when i should sit back and watch…not always act. To be still and appreciate what is going on around me. There is a certain peace associated with stillness….one that would be nice to find in myself.

well like i said i am learning…..i am not very comfortable with meditation. i feel like i am not doing it right…..actually i am probably overthinking it…..hehehe. i need to just sit and enjoy the peace. i need to stop trying to find this great meaning to everything and just appreciate the silence….the stillness….the peace of meditation. Why is this so hard for me? i honestly am trying…..patience isn’t my strong point.

Fledgeling’s Journey

Originally posted 2006-05-25 13:13:51.