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SeaRabbit writes movingly about being in a long distance relaionship and suffering from bipolar disorder:

Somehow, I’m sure many people who have any emotional disturbance could feel exactly as I do… Everyone being into LD are trying to get together… We are together, and that problem was already discussed 3 years ago, when he decided to come with in Montreal for the time I get my retirment… So now, what? We are back there? We didn’t suffered enough at that time? We didn’t cry enough at the idea of being miles away from each other? Do we have to redo all again?

I don’t want… and it is something that I talk about often in therapy… How it is difficult for me to feel that I am part of this relationship… When he is not feeling guilty about his mom, being alone in England, it is about his son being not happy with his mom in BC… I’m stocked in the middle… with the possibility that one day, because of the BPD, he will have enough and leave for one of those side of the world…

For now, I know he still wants to be here, and this is the quality of his love for me… but who knows? …

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Originally posted 2007-02-28 17:55:49.