Star Gazing

Starlet writes about different ways to subspace:

subspace. i have discovered that this comes in different forms. Previously he has always taken me into my headspace via humiliation… it pushes me into myself, i can feel myself drift away until my mind is gone… and it is a wonderful feeling. But pain is an entirely different matter. i love being hurt… i think i’ve established this much here before, but i’m not great at taking it… it consumes me, eats me up… i cry, i scream, i struggle… it screeches its way through my body until all that is there is pain, pain and more pain. Until Saturday i have never been able to reach subspace through pain. So this was a first… and a revelation. He was at (what i thought was) my limit… he’d put his newly purchased paddle through its paces (to the extent that he later complained that “the leather has already begun to crack”)… my ass was on fire and his fist was buried so deep inside me that i thought he was going to split me in two. Then all of a sudden something inside my head just clicked into place. i just gave in to the pain… let it wash over me… and as my mind submitted, my body followed suit… i could feel the tension drain away… i became limp and i opened up to him… i took his fist, his blows, his pain… it was a moment of absolute, perfect, beautiful surrender. i can quite honestly say i have never felt such ecstasy as i did in that moment. But it was different. i didn’t ‘go away’ like i do with the humiliation… instead i was right there with him, in the moment… but flying so, so high.

Star Gazing

Originally posted 2006-08-29 21:31:17.